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Reading the bible and hear this sound ringing downstairs. oooh, its actually the bus engine sound.
It sounded just like the keyboard/synthesizer, i was quite sure it is the note B so i took my guitar and played B on the A string. WOW it is! (maybe cause church always play in B key so can recognise)
I wont say the sound generated by the engine is a perfect B neither it is out of tune.

Isnt it great that even these sounds carry musical notes?
The small little details can form a symphony that will inspire and motivate?
In life, it may seem like your playing a melody thats out of tune, wrong key, wrong tuning and so on.
But looking from God's point of view, He could turn these unhappy notes into a beautiful piece which He enjoys.
He can tune you to His tunings, even if you hit the wrong notes, He will make it whole (whole note if you know what im talking).

He is like the conductor, a perfect one, and at times we don't seem to be able to catch up but will you trust that if you hand over to Him, He will let you hear the melody that is uniquely you.

If you are on the stage, He is your fan but at the same time your music director.

cellgroup was great yesterday, it wasnt just an ordinary sharing. The hearts of the people are really tender.

Throughout the few years, people come and go. We are really building a family in here, a community that we may not expect to be ideal but at least for eternity.

If i could, i would want to compile all their struggle in faith. Everyone will come to this stage where they have to depend on God in faith even though they can't feel and see Him working at all. It is this period where we grow stonger to follow.
We will be surprised to know how much we forsake for the cause. There is a lot of things worth doubting but nothing new is under the sun.
"Yet indeed I also count all things loss for the excellence of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them as rubbish, that I may gain Christ.."

In the end, what ghim said, wisdom is meaningless.

Someday they will come back. Maybe their kids will go to the same kindergarten in church. Maybe the words in the book may help them through. Probably



I grew up in Sunday school
I memorized the Golden Rule
And how Jesus came to set the sinner free
I know the story inside out
I can tell you all about
The path that led Him up to Calvary
But ask me why He loves me
And I don't know what to say
But I'll never be the same
Because He changed my life when He became...

Everything to me
He's more than a story
More than words on a page of history
He's the air that I breathe
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything, everything to me

We're living in uncertain times
And more and more I find that I'm aware
Of just how fragile life can be
I want to tell the world I found
A love that turned my life around
They need to know that they can taste and see
Now every day I'm praying
Just to give my heart away
I want to live for Jesus
So that someone else might see that He is...

Everything to me
He's more than a story
More than words on a page of history
He's the air that I breathe
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything
And looking back over my life at the end
I'll go to meet You saying You've been

You're everything to me
You're more than a story
More than words on a page of history You're everything to me
You're more than a story
More than words on a page of history
You're the air that I breathe
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
You're everything
Lord, You're everything to me

hm...mst is over and boredom is something to be dealt with now!
this mst was quite slack, didnt study very hard(compared to past) but good thing i prayed so i guess its God; things that i studied appeared on the paper.

I only studied the particular module the day before while other people is like studied the notes over and over again. I hope its not just my extreme-optimism =/
Last paper was ): but i think will pass luh, know bits and pieces of everything.

this blog has been dead for some time but i will just treat it as dairy heh

long long hair: bagus

i felt far away from You and..

was bored and didnt have motivation to do the assignments. After listening to some inspirational songs and talking to someone, i think i should gather enough courage to face it.

Talking about first love, you wake up to think of that person. And constantly finding ways to please the person. Sometimes you just enjoy even the silence in the presence.

After quite a long time, you find that your draining out in pursuing.
When it is so near yet so far, you wished that the other side will understand your plight and what you needed in the person.

What if the other side understood you completely, loved with all everything and have already prepared a great deal of what you ever imagined you would get but it just required you to trust and keep loving.
It might not just come at the end of the journey instead surprises might be hidden like kinder bueno along the way.

Love is patient, love is kind
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Jesus Christ gave His life as a ransom for me.
The harder i fall, the more i want to stretch to reach to Him.
There is nothing too great that can separate this love except our self-thought reaction to failure.

There are alot of reasons for me to just chuck the 'responsibility' of God aside but never the relationship with God.


hm...if i were to be just a normal church going christian without fulfiling my destiny, i wonder what kind of family culture i am going to create. Or even what kind of wife!
i wonder if my present family will hear the gospel
I wonder if i will bring my kids to church or read to them stories from the Bible during their bedtime.
I wonder if i will even be a good husband, am i going to just react like i used to?
if i die, i wonder will they put me beside all the other gods.

I wonder what my future will be without God.
cause i can't imagine

:D think about it

im not afraid you will be unfaithful but im afraid i will.
maybe its the right one just that it is not the right time.

:o test coming