its God, the reason i live...

once again im confused, i can only depend on God now. Its just like the 1st time i became core leader, literaly, everyone was my disciple, haha but thats good, becuz i know God can mould me tru all these, and its true! i think i became matured, and abit more playful.
hm...almost everything i do have a purpose, even like talking, its not that im bored, its because i wan to have a closer relationship with someone in this way, the guy can be true to me and share problems, eventualy i can teach the guy new things abt God and life.
Yep, God gave me a good life!(doesnt mean that i dun have problems and im rich or wad =..=") He gave me a life to serve others. Betcha, everything is serving God, like doing dnt, buy food for friends in recess, copying notes in school, even i may not be wrong but apologise(when Holy Spirit gave me thoughts in my head, i start to think, maybe i was wrong! and i give thx to God hehe, awesome), its not a chore, if i start to think it as routine and as chore, i will not be able to survive so long.

may see me jump jump cheerful monkey, actually i have times that im down, bogged by alot of things, have to plan alot things, study all these. it was just my thinking that God is not helping me, but Holy spirit softly told me to have faith, rewards are for those who endure, with zealous ambition to serve God. Yup Yup you are not wrong i have time being stressed just like you. But tru alot of brothers and sisters, i slowly learn not to let troubles trouble me, since i know how to do it, i must teach people how to do it, so i begin to teach to people everything i know!
In my mind i was thinking that it would be wonderful if they know these things and grow! Being spiritual is my greatest strength and my weakness too, unfortunetly...
its hard lol, wanting to be like liang zhi, able to teach well, and lead well. I dunno how to lead well, and i dunno how to teach well too...the way lz pushed me to leader is that he will let me know the importance of being this core leader, the ppl lifes are practicaly in my hands, i must have fear of God, not fear of lz la =...=". The things he said eventhou sometimes the tone is make ppl sad those kind, but it relly make sense, "if we want to give to God, give it the 100%, God don't deserve our half baked effort", come to think of it, relly make sense, cuz i haven got rid of my slacking character that is brought down from the past. In the past everyday was so slack, go school is to plae only, come back home play computer game, watch tv or sleep, but now life is more meaningfull, filled with purpose. Thank you God.

There are alot christian songs, but what i like most is All Day. Cuz the lyrics says everything i wan to say and be. To be elaborate, i dun care wat they gossip about me or say bad things about me, its alright, i wont let it affect me, devil got great plan for me bringing me down with his people. I dun care wat think have impression on me, but i care wat they think about christian, so non believers advice is useful too! must change their mindset of christians go church for girls, go there act holy or being proud that we go heaven they go hell, i must change! But its not enough for me to change everyone has to change! its saying i will not be ashamed being christian, being christian very paiseh meh? how come people would DENY CHRIST when ppl ask them, so sad, i pray God forgive them.