baaaccckk to post my quiet time~`.'~ didnt post don't mean that i dun do my qt lol...
have been reading psalm for a period.

God have been speaking and giving the evidence of what my church is teaching now. example for this: Pslam 142:2- I pour out my complaint before him;
before him I tell my trouble.
cool huh. Thank you God for boosting my knowledge of the word so when i teach others to complaint to God first before other people, i will use this verse. cool God.
verse 7- Set free of bondage, stronghold, mindset, unbelief or things like that. Human will know its wrong because we have conscience and God do speak to us. God do speak to me at least.

Psalm 143
trying to understand what david is feeling, his enemies chase him down. In his distress he praised God and know that God will come to his relief. David remembered what God had done. Thinking back boost his faith. For me i have alot life experience that i went through with God if i were to share to others i don't know where to start. Mission trip is the prominent one. If you were to think of backsliding, think to yourself, did you really try God out? or did you wan God to try you? Having no memories between you and God? maybe because you dun even have a relationship with God from the start.

i remembered the times when i first came to know God. I accepted Christ because i thought "if there is really heaven and hell, then let me go heaven".
Thats the reason i accepted Christ. i dunno why but i got convicted to follow Christ. My mum got angry cus i go church(thats abt 2weeks after i accepted christ), from then on i got serious parent objection. Doing quiet time is a big problem, i tried reading the bible openly but i got scolded and i would hide myself and read the bible. In that time, i would find ways to read the bible, i will wake up during midnight and have my devotion to God. When others are watching tv, i will go to my room. That was my first love and i never knew wad first love was. Even when God is speaking to me, i don't know that it is God prompting me because i had fear in me and alot of doubts. During this time i depended alot on God. Life is a torment with all these problems but i didnt dare to tell others because i have this mind set of "not giving others problems" and "serve others,help their problem". Emotions cannot be controlled, i feel the way any one will feel BUT i didnt think in the way i feel. Thats the time i grow alot alot. before i know it, i got 3 disciples and very soon after i became a core leader. With that much fear in me and such a responsibility, God led me out.

kinda think of my life, it is meaningful and wow. I think in the past i have the mindset of "being a leader should know everything" so i got abit of fear BUT it led me to be curious and started researching on things i want to know and i would ask God for help. So now i could understand how people feel because i gone through it, yeep i felt the way members would feel but something different is the thinking and the reaction.
These are abit of stories with God that will constantly remind me how great God is.

Reminiscing.(:)