i need living water for my soul. :D

no secrets can be kept secrets forever. so no point doing the things that lead to shame and source of ownself discouragement.

yeah YI camp is coming! YES! let this camp be better than last year. let the people who went to the camp be stronger and not entertain the devil's negotiation to bring you out.
This holiday, im gonna take a break(which i am constantly having)going to taiwan for 7days and miss leaders retreat... ARGGHH leaders retreat is the most anticipated event of the year man..

well lets pray that our fire will burn brightly.
BOB=BURN OUT BRIGHT!

SUPER ULTRA DEEPLY VERY GRACIOUSLY
BEEEEEEEEEEZY

why be so worrisome? why wear a facade? its absolutely not noble at all.
its better to be transparent than to always hide away from people and trying to be mysterious. its not cool ya know
er..not pointing at anyone, just random thoughts. lol

hey young adults out there. i know people expect from you alot. you try to meet those expectations but sometimes you fail whether intentionally or unintentionally.
somehow u feel that u get more scoldings than affirmation and encouragement.
BUT be strong, dun let your heart harden against people nor God. If u need a close, loyal, understanding and trustworthy fren, pray about it and act according to it. That means u have to be a close, loyal, understanding and trustworthy fren to someone. it will be more blessed to give than receive.
i guess its transition

study is good! but no one seem to like it =/
guitar is good! but i dun have time now. must get GPA 3 for tis sem. CHIONG!
praying is absolutely good, i like it, i will make time for it.
recently quite busy with studies but God is good, He gonna mold me to become more like Him.

i wanna dedicate this song "never let me go" by hillsong united to tertiary and all ppl who are having projects and felt that they have too much to do.




this song is my favorite song at the moment even though its quite a old song but i like how the lyrics is presented in a very soothing music and melody. This song is not really famous and popular, maybe my preference is weird but i listen to lyrics more than the melody.
the song ended by telling God "i'll never let you go"

Hey ya! ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I UPDATED!!

ok lets start with the bday celebration that zealot3 gave me.
I knew some people were up to something on 27 oct(my real bday date) deepavali after the svc 2 pm
lz said there will be meeting later and sab is joining on behalf of zealot4
i told him: why not tell the others in zealot4 to come too? they might give good ideas
the more the merrier (well..i really mean the celebration)

so we got on a icecream shop and lz lied all the way LOL; "julia and irvin will be late for meeting"
we got our butts on the chair and lz distracted me by talking abt how good the shop is luh, can put photos on the board and..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!(beng)
didnt expect cellgroup to give that sweet surprise. :D

THE NEXT BEST THING IS.. 29 oct...
on following wed they used BRX, this time i got owned badly
i really did thought BRX was gonna meet me for ministry
school ended, hop on to van and he was gonna bring me to somewhere to talk
(he didnt say hes gonna meet for ministry or talk, i was suspecting abit so i didnt ask)
got on to boat quay, walked walked to find that place. jerome called him and was gonna meet him after he met me. (this was not in the plan)
then he called his fren "Alex" asking where the place is and we reached the place.
(jj picked up and who was blurred who is alex den i think junde answered)

Its minds cafe, at this pt, im quite sure im in for something.
walked up the stairs
!!!
!!
!!
a familiar song was sang and my heart skipped a beat.
woah more than half the cellgroup was there man,
no gift or guitar can compare to this..being honored by the very members i prayed for everyday
My wish is that God bless them more than what they blessed me
THANK EVERY WHO RMB, THOUGHT OF, NEVER THOUGHT OF, ONCE THOUGHT OF, DONE SOMETHING FOR THIS BDAY. :) :)

ok wads next..
uh..reminded of incident.
i went off earlier from tuesday prayer meeting. i think its on 21 oct
was gonna go to the bank in beauty world, den i saw this old man having difficulty standing up(think he fell down), soft voice in me told me to help this old man but i ignored and went down to the bank but on the way, i felt very uncomfortable so i rushed upstairs and i saw the shop assistants in the korean shop helping him.

felt really badd abt that, i ignored God. it reminded me that if i don't do what i should do, other people will do what i should do but the whole process of getting the destination will be delayed.
i wish i was listening to songs like "here i am send me" or "dare you to move" at that pt but i learned something

ok thats all, lazy to type more. gotta have more time study, ministry and improve guitar
bb

"anyone who has the ability to carry a guitar has talent to play a guitar"


"living church just on weekends, are you satisfied?" the constant question i ask myself

sometimes i very encouraged by what the cell mates done, i mean REALLY encouraged but theres time i feel disappointed.

im still discontented now. im not satisfied with just seeing people putting their focus attracting attention. im not satisfied with where i am with God yet. i want more. Theres too much words, too much emotion and thoughts which i can't express

talking about living 'christian' on weekend, reminded me of Jagjit testimony. Awesome, never heard of that in Singapore. His stand for to love God is inmeasurable. While there are people who are bound in chains and still running towards God, there are people who would run away from God; taking our Saviour for granted.
God is good! He is a friend yet a a Father who loves me and you
But no matter who you are, you still belong to God. God is faithful, He will not forsake u even if u forsake Him.

be faithful and stay close. Don't threaten to give up. let your love be strong.

Guitar + pig= Guitar pig(pick)! hm...not funny



Proverbs 24:33 A little sleep, a little slumber, a little folding of the hands to rest-
34 and poverty will come on you like a bandit and scarcity like an armed man.

indeed laziness dun get a person anywhere far.
sometimes teens do wanna be disciplined and get well in studies, do what their parents want them to do. To be a good child. Be a person that God wills.
But just that there is too many, too many things to do and teens who have to care about their relationship with everyone, their results and their own conviction.
Now we gotta understand young ppl are sensitive and tend to have swings.

The Bible tells us not to be anxious about anything but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanks giving, present your request to God.
frankly, throughout my Christian walk, i never once said that i am stressed.
being stressed is taking your focus away from God.

Everyone fights for their own rights, fight for your own salvation.
are you gonna break up like those who did?

this is your life are you who you wanna be


cheer up! you can only cheer up when you cheer others up!
discourage others and find yourself be discouraged soon
dun say things like "fail the test already la!" "i just pass only, i am not any better ( where in fact, everyone failed the test)" "sure die"

HELLO!

=D im back... with a short post.

Genesis 17 :1WHEN ABRAM was ninety-nine years old, the Lord appeared to him and said, I am the Almighty God; walk and live habitually before Me and be perfect (blameless, wholehearted, complete). 2And I will make My covenant (solemn pledge) between Me and you and will multiply you exceedingly.Amp version

its amazing! The first thing God said to Abram is to "walk and live HABITUALLY & be perfect (blameless, wholehearted, complete) " then, the covenant will be set.
it just tells me how IMPORTANT be righteous means in God's eye.

EVERYTIME not just sometimes, God requires us to be blameless in His sight and walk with Him to be able to be used by Him. Keeping this life pure is very important for me. Its my top priority, i wanna be like Jesus, who will not deny His own character to do something.
Let God's character be my character.

Life isnt meant to be average but its hard to live a high standard life without someone pushing you on like a coach.
Michael Jordan had a coach that will always push beyond his limits and thats why he could do wad he could do. after the coach left the team, he left the team too.

its like relying on God to drive you on for greater heights in different area of your life; it may be ministry, spiritual life, studies, sports, relationship with people, wisdom and all...
oh God will never walk out half way so don't walk out of God too.

God will bless u diferent gifts(talents) but something to be aware of is that use your talents for the glory of the kingdom not for your ambition.
Jeremiah 9:23 Let not the wise man glory in his wisdom, Let not the mighty man glory in his might, Nor let the rich man glory in his riches;

1 corinthians 10:31 Therefore, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.

everyday has a new dawn for us. it represent the hope and freedom everyone can have. you just have to open your eyes and take a notice of it.

alright decided to blog ahhahh
i can't imagine there is actually people living with me in the same house going to hell!

God really did opened my eyes.
I felt a prompting that God wants me to write songs to glorify His holy name. its cool.

Focus hocus pocus. Come guys rise up to take responsibility of this generation.

its hurting to see people come and people go.
be the catcher to 'catch' souls outside.

why chase after the world to hurt God. I don't know wad people are thinking but i do know they lost the love. They might even forget the things God done. Have you forgotten how u prayed to God and He answered your prayer?

Have you forgotten the times that you spend worshipping and praising Him for who He is? The emotions you gave to God, was it fake?

• Is it worth it? Does God deserve the attitude that you walk in to His presence and walk out anytime you like?

Christians leave for several reasons:
-->> DON HAVE RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD
-->> Don't want to commit to follow God
-->> Conflicts with people
-->> The world offer better things and they went for it
-->> To invoke people to give attention
-->> Tired (for what ever reason)
-->> ashamed and guilty of past mess up
-->> Fear (disappointment, commitment etc..)
-->> Don't believe in God anymore
-->> Friends leave then follow lor
-->> No more "feel"
-->> No longer fun?
-->> People don't understand me (Jesus does (:)
-->> aiya Church too far!

blah blah and many many more...

Remember God died for you and me on the cross.

But you are to hold fast to the LORD your God, as you have until now.

So be very careful to love the LORD your God.

You know with all your heart and soul that not one of all the good promises the LORD your God gave you has failed. Every promise has been fulfilled; not one has failed

i missed out the part where God disciplines His child in love. I can forget doing homework,sleep,my name but not forgetting about obeying Him, who God is and God's promises. (:

slave?
Probably why somebody is a slave is because:
1.the person is in HUGE debts so he needs to sell himself to slave to clear the debt.
2. The person have no ability to feed himself
3. Family sold him to earn money

so wads the outcome being slave?
->> be like a maid!
->> do wadever the master ask you no matter how humiliating or difficulty
->> U will be seen as a object to be traded

I like what Paul said, he made himself slave to Christ. wow man its a strong word!
But God is faithful, He will not give you a task u cannot bear.
Giving God the complete ownership of his life. Whole life dedicated to God. i dun use the word "bound" cus being with God is a privilege.

Are you ready for the wave God is gonna bring? Once you told God that you give up ur comfort for the cross, your life will be met with opportunities that will mold you.

What ever God revealed to me, He wants me to do something about it. hm..

my family members are all out so i can do anything i like, ate my dinner and go shower. Inside the toilet i started talking to myself the vision of the ministry then started singing my own song with my own style to worship God.

Before that, God somehow told me, are u satisfied with singing songs other people wrote to praise Me?

When is God gonna provide me guitar? Let it go according to God's will.

Alright lets work this salvation out of our knees. PRAY I MEAN.

i gave up guitar until the Lord provides me one. its hard to understand but i gave it to God.
sorry and thank you God.
praying for the bbq event what i can do.
it depends on me.

i have failed, have i done enough?
It is time to deny my own desires and do the things thats pleasing to God. Let me do the things that my spirit wants to do and reject any desire my soul wants.

There is no excuse for me to do things that are godly, things that are impossible,things that will consume my energy or time. I hate the " i need people to care for me" kind of stuff but nevertheless i will treat people the way they want to be treated but i want others to treat me the way i don't want to be treated. I will do the things that i don't feel like doing.

Its all giving out~yeah man. Its going outward, its going outward. it will lead me on to be the ideal world changer. Yeah what ever come my way, BRING IT ON HAHAHAHA.
i have tried to impart these to my people but they somehow don't buy it.
Should the "world changer" idea be only my idea? a idea can only be a idea, 2nd step is to believe and then act on your believe and be convicted.

->>>luke 16:31 If they won’t listen to Moses and the prophets, they won’t listen even if someone rises from the dead

haven been posting my qt

today~Proverbs 11:4 Riches won’t help on the day of judgment,
but right living can save you from death. character will be eternal. So no use spending so much time on things that are temporary, spend time with God and reflect on ourself. Spend time thinking about your own growth.
: 7 When the wicked die, their hopes die with them,
for they rely on their own feeble strength. Why not turn to the God who alone are the hope for life?
In this chapter it compares the wise and the wicked, the wicked one always tio the bad consequences but God will protect the godly

v 13 A gossip goes around telling secrets,
but those who are trustworthy can keep a confidence.
->> hey before we say that others is a gossiper at other's back, aren't you a gossiper if u say that someone is a gossiper at the person's back?

18 Evil people get rich for the moment,
but the reward of the godly will last. This is temporary~

Give freely and become more wealthy;
be stingy and lose everything.

haha haven been going out to play alot, stayed home cause its raining raining. raining is bad for health :(. when ppl go jogging they will slip n fall :(:(:( causes my clothes to be wet :(:(:( causes flood :(:(:( causes my slippers to be wet :(:( hehe

wisdom wisdom what is wisdom? I think now i need wisdom to be good in everything. wisdom = ability to apply knowledge or experience or understanding or common sense and insight.
Found this statement very true. Fear of the Lord is the beggining to wisdom. Sometimes its not wise to put everything u feel on the blog. A blog is to let others see not private if it is private why let people know u got a blog. Even its a private blog will you put all your hatred u have on somebody, all your anger and vulgar blah blah...?
take a look back on past post, you have a 'pleasant' life story huh
Proverbs 2:6 For the LORD gives wisdom, and from his mouth come knowledge and understanding. wisdom knowledge and understanding come hand in hand. putting knowledge into practice. i think that is very important to grow as a Christian, i really hope people around will start to be mature and think wise.

some simple understanding: When a person refuse to listen to advices and saying he/she wants to leave church(even though got do quiet time) then, probably the person lacks attention,the affirmation and appreciation from people.
This guy need someone to complaint to, maybe he or she had some problems and no one knew that. this person or guy might be in 'emo state'. Pray God speak to the person directly<<>
he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless,
it is our character that is most important. Your action shows your character. being blameless,hm... ask God to judge you, know the truth.

Wisdom in character will save you! correct judgment will protect you! Wise choices will watch over you.

baaaccckk to post my quiet time~`.'~ didnt post don't mean that i dun do my qt lol...
have been reading psalm for a period.

God have been speaking and giving the evidence of what my church is teaching now. example for this: Pslam 142:2- I pour out my complaint before him;
before him I tell my trouble.
cool huh. Thank you God for boosting my knowledge of the word so when i teach others to complaint to God first before other people, i will use this verse. cool God.
verse 7- Set free of bondage, stronghold, mindset, unbelief or things like that. Human will know its wrong because we have conscience and God do speak to us. God do speak to me at least.

Psalm 143
trying to understand what david is feeling, his enemies chase him down. In his distress he praised God and know that God will come to his relief. David remembered what God had done. Thinking back boost his faith. For me i have alot life experience that i went through with God if i were to share to others i don't know where to start. Mission trip is the prominent one. If you were to think of backsliding, think to yourself, did you really try God out? or did you wan God to try you? Having no memories between you and God? maybe because you dun even have a relationship with God from the start.

i remembered the times when i first came to know God. I accepted Christ because i thought "if there is really heaven and hell, then let me go heaven".
Thats the reason i accepted Christ. i dunno why but i got convicted to follow Christ. My mum got angry cus i go church(thats abt 2weeks after i accepted christ), from then on i got serious parent objection. Doing quiet time is a big problem, i tried reading the bible openly but i got scolded and i would hide myself and read the bible. In that time, i would find ways to read the bible, i will wake up during midnight and have my devotion to God. When others are watching tv, i will go to my room. That was my first love and i never knew wad first love was. Even when God is speaking to me, i don't know that it is God prompting me because i had fear in me and alot of doubts. During this time i depended alot on God. Life is a torment with all these problems but i didnt dare to tell others because i have this mind set of "not giving others problems" and "serve others,help their problem". Emotions cannot be controlled, i feel the way any one will feel BUT i didnt think in the way i feel. Thats the time i grow alot alot. before i know it, i got 3 disciples and very soon after i became a core leader. With that much fear in me and such a responsibility, God led me out.

kinda think of my life, it is meaningful and wow. I think in the past i have the mindset of "being a leader should know everything" so i got abit of fear BUT it led me to be curious and started researching on things i want to know and i would ask God for help. So now i could understand how people feel because i gone through it, yeep i felt the way members would feel but something different is the thinking and the reaction.
These are abit of stories with God that will constantly remind me how great God is.

Reminiscing.(:)

read psalm 135 made me realise of praising God. the initial stage where we start to praise God with all we got. Your name, O LORD, endures forever,Your fame, O LORD, throughout all generations.
& pslam 136 all about God's mercy, imagine what the author had gone through that made him to write about God's mercy

mercy have 2 about the similar meaning which i found its good: 1) the discretionary power of a judge to pardon someone or to mitigate punishment
2)Something for which to be thankful; a blessing.
In Psalm 136 probably its the 2nd meaning of mercy. He was thanking God for the Earth he is living in, the grace he had.Thanking God for the hello kitty and computer(jus kidding).

Mercy translate to spanish is "compasión" sounds like compassion huh? it is. :)
Mercy is not just the chocolate or being lenient of the punishment, it shows the character and the heart. Bcus God is merciful i think i shld be, hm.. let God give me test. Wad can endure forever except for God and true disciples that follow him?

Psalm 137:9 Happy is the one who takes your babies and smashes them against the rocks!
Take a look what this person is going through, God did not tell him to smash his baby on the rock but he is being genuine with his feeling to God. The person was in such sorrow over his home that he said this. God wouldnt tell some1 to do this~ Jesus said "if anyone causes the little ones to stumble and fall, its better for you to tie a rock around your neck and throw yourself to the sea".

holidays are here what am i gonna do? hm...self reflecting =D
ok only linked zealot 3 ppl, others slowly ba.

just swam past the channel 5 show life story, didnt watch much. wo indeed the most wanted man in Sg became a pastor. WOW could imagine if any one were to tell him some negative comments abt themselve, what will the pastor say?
hm...dreams? some dreams only meant to be dream. reach to a stage of maturity where God is all even of giving up 'dreams' that i would call. Dreams like being a star(woo~~), singer or wad ar. lol i would think of being a singer all these too ^^. Its cool to write own songs huh.
Sometime i get proud over myself being able to sing well. Well only in praising and worshiping God. ^^

Long before time, someone asked me that being a Christian issit giving up your dreams? I felt like saying "yes"(at that time i not so spiritually mature) that time but the person is not at that stage yet lah so i said "no". the truth is being a disciple is.

Heard of this?-->> "Being saved cost us nothing, being a disciple cost us everything"

Pondered over a question "will God call us to be a road sweeper?"
there is no answer to it because the question is wrong =D
it should be "What is God's calling?" den there is an answer.

hehe anyone who read this post, God bless you. Go find out your calling.

Long time ago, brother slyvester(now in service one) gave up a chance to go taiwan for some stardom but he gave up because it will take away his chance to get closer to God abit. wow i still remember even though its like more than a year ago.
Hm..if i were a singer then i have influence over people then people will know the God that i have. wooo
mission trip weeeeeee

today's qt turned back to read at psalm

psalm 128:1 Blessed are all who fear the LORD,
who walk in his ways.

Fear must always be reminded constantly, no such thing that worship God now and later start to hate other people. Would God hate you? Always listen to people's advices because in this way you are obeying God's word and walk in His way. If there were arguments of whether to obey, that means you dun really know who is God huh. Im sure to tell whatever advice i give others its biblical, i will find the verse.

For example advising others to sleep early: Psalm 127:2 It is vain for you to rise up early, To sit up late, To eat the bread of sorrows; For so He gives His beloved sleep.

ytd qt taught of reaping in tears but sow with joy.today:psalm 128:2 When you eat the labor of your hands,You shall be happy, and it shall be well with you.

seek God and ask for blessing :D
mission trip is near, let me be able to gogogo.